If I could make up those stories, then I should change my profession to being a tv/film writer. I learned you just can’t fix someone; you can help them and aid them and take care of them, but if they’re truly not willing to address their own issues and take responsibility and accept blame, then there’s nothing you can do. I can’t take back what I did… I can only be sorry. Understand that my true intentions were NOT meant to hurt the woman I loved, but only meant to SHAKE her up or give her a very loud wake up call.
what kills me is how many colleagues/friends of hers have come out of nowhere with “so called situations” “I didn’t wanna get involved or in between you 2, but did you know….? did you hear…. ?” “had I ever known a life was involved, then I would have intervened” etc etc etc…
listen to me…
first and foremost, you’re too late, so thanks, but I don’t care now; what’s done is done and I shall proceed with my own life.
now, I understood the job when I signed up for it. It could have went either way with us. I have a past that was filled with girls… I never denied that or avoided anything asked to me. She had heard tons of rumors of my past… She understood the job title too. But once I heard “I’m/We’re having a baby. I changed that “player” part of my lifestyle REAL QUICK so we could have a healthy relationship. Underneath I’m the same guy, but as a lover/companion I’ve learned to become a better one. I also understood the possible consequences, BUT I haven’t gone this far in life and been successful in many different fields by being an idiot. “scared money don’t make no money”. I was trying to provide and help someone I loved as any good man would do. I’ve always been a rock to my best friends.
I had my negativity fix last week. I’ve been fine this whole year with having peace and I know what to do and what’s right to do, it’s just not the easiest thing to do. I got myself into this and only I can get myself out of it. Don’t make me get started again, I am fully aware of how powerful my blog is. I am not that guy who wants to learn jiu-jitsu to just beat people up on the streets. I take advantage of opportunities that don’t risk pain or hurt of others. I’m sorry if I offended any of you, but understand, there was a lot going on in my life and something had to happen so I used stronger windshield wipers.
also, I learned too much pride will kill a relationship, I was never too proud ever to admit love. but I never understood when people would say “sometimes love isn’t enough” so true, because if a person doesn’t RESPECT their companion, then it’s not going to work.